Not sure why, but my mind has been traveling in a hundred different directions–Marty & I were talking recently about how we communicate with each other & also our children. It’s so easy to expect everyone to see things from my point of view and not realize another’s perspective. His comment was, “Don’t forget we are all dealing with Mel’s death in different ways.” How very true–it has helped tremendously to know I am not alone in my struggle with thinking how much I miss Mel, when the others are all missing her to, but maybe in different ways. With lots of fun holidays around the corner, my mind is never too far from thinking about our last holiday, and knowing this one will be different, especially with knowing how very much Mel wanted to live and enjoy life with us. Yet I keep hearing her say to me, ” Mom, we just have to trust God.”
The other evening, Marty & I attended a banquet where a husband and wife spoke about some of their journey of life. The comment was made,”What’s wrong with this picture–isn’t it supposed to be the children who say ‘good-bye’ to their parents, not the parents to their children?” I sat there fighting the tears as I realized again that yes, our picture has been a bit backwards–out of millions of children, why such a rare syndrome found its way to our home…..I know I cannot change this picture or even make sense out of it all–yet I have to hold onto the faith that tells me that I will some day have answers to all my questions–it is not for me to know or even understand, or dare I say make sense out of it all–but I want to keep holding onto the hand of my Heavenly Father–somehow I know Mel is watching us, cheering us on, encouraging me to hold onto that faith that will one day make sense–
We love you, and miss you Mel, and can’t wait ’til we see you again! Love, Mom
